It is Sunday and he has been gone since Friday lunchtime and already I am missing my noisy and vivacious boy. Never thought I would say that, I used to love getting time without him and having a bit of me time but now it all feels wrong being here with the girls and A and no JJ. I am quite sure he is not feeling the same way as he is having a fab time with Nanny and Grandad H, they went to London yesterday I believe. Nothing planned for today - just some relaxing and a nice roast - then off to see them tomorrow and spend time with my family.
It amazes me how much I have grown to love my children and how I have adapted to being at home with them full-time at the moment. Do I want to go back to work? who knows! One day I think definately yes, I need the time out and some external stimulation and then others I wonder if God is leading me to be at home and take care of my hubby, babies and house. The arrangements for going back to work seem to be falling into place and that is leading me to think it is the right thing - I am sure God will reveal his hand and I will know for sure.
