Well that is how I feel today. It is one of those awful days when I get all anxious and there appears to be no real reason for it. It really wears me out and I lose the ability to make decisions and to have fun. I am so thankful my Mum is here as she is busy playing with the kids giving me a bit of time to sort out some things and to have a little catch up on here. It is amazing how much better you feel after 20 minutes of time to think without the babies.
I have now sorted out my nursery fees which had me owing over £1K rather than the £243 I expected and have wipped the arses of those people at T mobile who dared to increase my tariff by double without telling me. Why they do these things I have no idea, well I do. It is because they think they can get away with it. Not with me....
I am off out tonight with the school mums and my Mum for a Chinese and a disco and I think once I get there I will have a fab time. I am sure I will indulge too much with food but at least I am driving so I will be drinking calorie free water or diet coke. Today has not been too bad a day I have just eaten my meals and nothing in between, which is a start but my lunch and dinner are pretty calorific.
I had a very good ED meeting last, I really related to what a few people spoke about and I managed to get home without stopping at the chip shop. Every small thing is something to be celebrated. At least I am not on self-destruct right now.
