To my gorgeous babies - JJ, Miss E and Miss M,
I wanted to write you a brief letter to say a big thank you. I adore you my kids, each and every one of you. You are as individual and different as can be and you enrich my life greatly. I could not imagine being 37 and not having you, there would be little meaning to my life if it was just about money, possessions and self-gratification.
This year you have bought the magic back into Christmas for me. Watching you get excited and enjoy advent is helping me to remember my own excitement around Christmas. I have been thinking back to my childhood, decorating the tree with my parents, peeking a look inside the Christmas presents when they had gone out, eating chocolate yule log, playing board games with the family after our Xmas dinner and dressing up in my new Christmas outfit. I can not remember the last time that Christmas started in November and the sense of enjoyment and anticipation kept so high. We have not even got to Christmas eve yet and I can not wait.... the three of you are really a blessing to me.
Mummy wants you to know that she is so proud of you.
JJ- I love your intelligence and inquisitive mind. You are so funny at times that you make great company and Mummy is very pleased with the way you have matured in the last 6 months and started to show more awareness in social situations. I must also say that you make me so happy when you help Mummy, either by being a great big brother or helping me with jobs around the house. You are my handsome little man.
Miss E - Woo betide to anyone who ever underestimates you. On initially meeting you people think you are quiet and subdued but they have not seen that steely determination and fiery anger that lurks inside. Channel that well and you will be dynamite when you are older. I adore that you love me so much and I love you that much right back, yes we are best friends darling. Your caring nature and desire to make people happy is very endearing. You are my poppet.
My message for each one of you is to be who God created you to be. Be proud to be individual, live your life as you feel it should be lived. Cherish every day and make the most of what you have. Concentrate on the positives. The secret to happiness is to want what you already have. Remember to live in the day, do not project and allow any worries to creep into your lives, stay innocent and care free for as long as you can. Enjoy life! Do unto others as you wish for them to do to you. Think of that phrase 'what goes around, comes around'. Bless others and be blessed right back. Right a good and righteous life in the eyes of the Lord and just try your best.
I don't care what you choose to do in life, you may wish to work in McDonalds or as an Ice Cream seller (JJ), or you may be a ballet dancer or vet (Miss M), or even a Mummy or teacher (Miss E). As long as you are happy in your life and you are not hurting other people then that works for me.
I will always be there to support you, in the good and the bad and one day I hope to be a Grandmother and to see your children. I can not even think forward that far as yet but I know it will be a time of much happiness.
Anyway I am not drunk and it is not the end of the year yet so I probably should not be feeling so sentimental or mardly. I was just struck tonight at Church about how much I love each one of you and how happy I am to be your Mummy. Yes, you challenge me every day; you can be naughty, I can get cross and over react but by the end of any day we are always back to our loving relationship and enjoying our goodnight snuggle.
Thank you my babes for being you. You are each just perfect for me.
Love you, Mummy xx