I am just back from Church and I had a really good night but I sat there thinking about how much I do not like the way I look right now. I felt so self-conscious, which is crazy as I was in the safest place ever. No one judges me there..... well except my worst critic that is - me!
Once back home I turned twitter on and saw a tweet from Notes to Self, Plus Two and recalled that she had started a weekly link up based on loving yourself and remembering who you are. I realised I needed to love myself a bit right now and thought I would join in this week.
The topic for this week, is around how you are doing with your new year resolutions. I hoped over to this post and had a look at what I had resolved to do this year and was a bit dismayed to see that I have completely ignored most of the good things I said I would do! Oh dear...
I vowed to spend time with my kids and to enjoy each of them. Thankfully I can put a tick against this one.
I resolved to re-start the date night that my husband and I used to enjoy. Whoops, not happened as yet. OK date set for next Sunday night. I need to try and feel a bit better about myself before then so that we can actually enjoy our night... leading me on to the next point which I have also completely ignored.
To stop stuffing my face full of unnecessary food. I have attempted to work on this a number of times this year. It is at the forefront of my mind every day. Some days I choose to ignore this and other days I choose to try really hard and to give my will over to God. I wanted to beat myself up when I realised that I have not been achieving my targets but actually I have been trying, failing but trying but that is OK. I am human and it is what happens sometimes. If I give up before the miracle happens then I will lose out. How many times did it take Edison to successfully create the electric lightbulb? 100's I believe, each one of them learning something for the time when he had the big win. I often quote the phrase 'win or learn' to people, we never fail. I must take heed of my own words.
and the last thing I resolved was to ensure I was in bed by 11pm. A mixed bag on this one, some nights (like last night) have been terrible and I have still been sat here tapping away at 1am. Other nights (like tonight) I have turned off my PC and gone to bed. Getting to bed at a decent hour and sleeping soundly makes such a difference to my attitude towards my children the next day.
I am very grateful to Notes for getting me thinking about this again. In Church tonight I was praying about what I should do for Lent and I am pretty sure the answer is to do something around my food. Not sure how radical I am supposed to go as yet though... I'll keep praying and see what comes to me.
What about you? How are you doing with your resolutions?